Maybe I can either rename this blog as “The One with the Unkept Blog” since I’ve gone on a very, very long hiatus on the Internet or maybe just delete all this shit and start again from the beginning just like what I have done for my past blogs that unfortunately died quietly. I guess this is me going through “quarter life crisis.”*nervous laugh*
I haven’t been really present online for the past year or so because I had to go through some deep, as in reaaally deep dark hole of negativity and it was a lot harder to overcome than what I have thought;and as one would assume, when you meet me personally, I am this jolly and all wise human being that is quite unbothered with everything surrounding her. NOPE, I’m that girl who carries the world on her freaking shoulders all the damn time just waiting to be crushed.
Ever had that kind of enthusiasm before New Year? The kind where you say to yourself “This will be the year, my year.” Well, that was me before the end of 2017. I was really optimistic with all that is to come this 2018; I was armed with my vision board, new handy planner, and plans to have the greatest year ever.
I hope you have settled in and aligned your goals for the year this January. As you may have remembered, my last post was about the 17 things I will be leaving behind 2017. I am pleased to update you all that life has been a bit better and lighter for the past few weeks of the year.
It’s almost the end of the year and here I am, sitting in the dark, typing away with no remorse for those who are now sound asleep, and still reflecting on what kind of year it has been. There were so many things that had happened that I am very thankful for and the instances that I hope to learn and grow from.
For the coming New Year, I have listed 17 things to leave behind in order to have a productive and joyous 2018. I hope that by letting them go would put a lighter weight on my shoulders and I also hope that you could have some take-away with it too.
This was a big step for me, because after almost three years living in a boarding house where I only have a wake up, go to work and sleep cycle, my sister and I decided to rent a bigger place, maybe an apartment or a condo unit, to allow us a comfortable living space where we can cook, have our own bathroom and a place where we don’t feel all crammed up. So last October, we found and moved in a condo unit.
From all the shenanigans we have done on moving from one place to another last month gave me some insights on being an adult and here are some of it.
My father and I always like to exchange some few thoughts, arguments, and advice now and then, may it be about life, responsibilities or men, which makes me love going home to the province every weekend. It is when we go for a walk or go for a run during the mornings or the afternoons and maybe when we are just relaxing at home that he shares with me his thoughts and just about anything that strucks his mind.
Life is a little rough along the way when you have set some standards early on. Nothing gets you excited than a little kid when you always see yourself doing all the amazing things one day and say, “I did it.”
But there will always be a catch, life isn’t always glitters and butterflies.