Life Lately: Gaining more perspective

Personal

Maybe I can either rename this blog as “The One with the Unkept Blog” since I’ve gone on a very, very long hiatus on the Internet or maybe just delete all this shit and start again from the beginning just like what I have done for my past blogs that unfortunately died quietly. I guess this is me going through “quarter life crisis.”*nervous laugh*

I haven’t been really present online for the past year or so because I had to go through some deep, as in reaaally deep dark hole of negativity and it was a lot harder to overcome than what I have thought;and as one would assume, when you meet me personally, I am this jolly and all wise human being that is quite unbothered with everything surrounding her. NOPE, I’m that girl who carries the world on her freaking shoulders all the damn time just waiting to be crushed.


Since last year, I have let myself succumbed on the roller coaster ride of feelings that I know I shouldn’t have dwelled on, and I really can’t blame myself for feeling things that I don’t even want to feel in the first place, because it is okay to not feel okay all the time(amiright?)

To be honest, I was confused. And lost.

I was really confused on what was happening around me; getting engaged, feeling lost at work, and setting aside my priorities and goals in order to be there for our family. I did not know what to do and how to be strong despite everything going on.

It was all too much that everything imploded; my feelings went haywire and I shut everyone off. I was just floating in a dark abyss.

I struggled seeing the good in every situation I have faced, last year. I felt numb everyday, even if there was something to be joyous about, because there was always a shadow lurking and waiting to feed on my own happiness. I was afraid to be happy to just be unhappy the next day.

I just wanted it all to stop but didn’t know how to.

Until, I managed to crawl through the end of the tunnel. I slowly started to reach out again; it wasn’t easy but I got out to take a long breath of fresh air again away from that dark abyss.

I know this sounds too sappy, so I’ll cut short to what I’m really trying to convey here.

Sometimes, you need to grow through what you go through.

Everything happens for you to grow may it be a harsh realization or a new sweet bud of beginning. It may be a cold harsh winter now but know that spring will soon come. You just have to rise above the challenges to prepare you for a new whole season.

God gives you the right people, at the right time and at the right place. Just trust the process.

I hope you are doing good, love.

On to my next post (soon… on heaven knows when.)

Xoxo,
Louise

Today is a new day, what are you grateful for?

 

2018 Highlight: 24K Magic World Tour Concert in Manila!

Lifestyle
20180503_214122
Somebody call NASA! Mars has just landed in Manila!

Life opened a way to my everlasting happiness last 2017. There were news that Bruno Mars was coming back to Manila, Philippines to do a two-day concert for his 24K Magic World Tour! Isn’t that amazing?! There was finally a chance to see Bruno Mars even from afar and hear him LIVE!

Life Lately: New project, Weddings, and my 2018 Theme

Personal

Happy New Year Loves!

I hope you have settled in and aligned your goals for the year this January. As you may have remembered, my last post was about the 17 things I will be leaving behind 2017. I am pleased to update you all that life has been a bit better and lighter for the past few weeks of the year.

17 Things to Leave Behind in 2017

Lifestyle, Personal

It’s almost the end of the year and here I am, sitting in the dark, typing away with no remorse for those who are now sound asleep, and still reflecting on what kind of year it has been. There were so many things that had happened that I am very thankful for and the instances that I hope to learn and grow from.

For the coming New Year, I have listed 17 things to leave behind in order to have a productive and joyous 2018. I hope that by letting them go would put a lighter weight on my shoulders and I also hope that you could have some take-away with it too.

Time to Glow Up! | November Haul

Lifestyle, Review

Given it is the time of the year where people get to have their bonuses pay, *ehem, 13th month pay, ehem* there is that feeling where everybody needs to buy everything they see whatever is in front of them. Well not everybody of course, but you get what I mean.

Translation: Me: I won’t go to the mall so I wouldn’t be tempted to buy anything Also Me: There’s an ongoing sale at Lazada!

Life Lately: Things I Learned After Moving to a New Place

Lifestyle, Personal

This was a big step for me, because after almost three years living in a boarding house where I only have a wake up, go to work and sleep cycle, my sister and I decided to rent a bigger place, maybe an apartment or a condo unit, to allow us a comfortable living space where we can cook, have our own bathroom and a place where we don’t feel all crammed up. So last October, we found and moved in a condo unit. 

From all the shenanigans we have done on moving from one place to another last month gave me some insights on being an adult and here are some of it.